not good enough

As I watching aimlessly watching tv today, instead of doing much more productive things for my mind, body and soul it occured to me that reality tv equals "you just are not good enough" just think about all the reality shows. This particular thought occured as I was watching another reality show called "American Princess". It shows a bunch of girls who obviously think they have what it takes to be an American Princess. And just like all the other reality shows, each one gets eliminated as the show progresses until the final battle when it comes down to the winner who will be dubbed the American Princess. So, as I began to think, I couldn't come up with one show that you were perfect for just being you. You either are not pretty, fast, skinny, fat, intelligent, graceful, glamorous, cheesy, mean, nice, funny, captivating, ingenious, deceiving, politcally correct enough. It's ridiculous. I would never make it on one of those shows, because I wouldn't be being me. The girl God created. Yes, of course, I would win a show hands down if it was called becoming the next "Leslie Fieg", because guess what, that is me. I wouldn't need to change anything or be enough of anything to win that part. Maybe I lack in the competitive spirit-or maybe I'm happy being me. It's good to know that I don't have to go on a reality show to prove something to myself. I feel very content with this. I can't say that I don't struggle with everyday comings and goings with other people and the feeling that I must prove myself to them. I do. Many times. But I have to live my life, I don't intentionally bring pain and rejection on my life by being on a reality show to prove myself someone other than I may be perceived by someone else. That's all.

Iran's president Mamoud Ahmadjihad (sp?) spoke at a general assembly type of meeting today in the USA. He likes to talk about prophets including adam, noah, moses, Jesus Christ and of course Mohammed. He is so super confused. It is quite sad to me.

I would love the chance to get to know him better. As I write this, I hear the Lord telling me, I would like to get to know you better too.